Nasa harap ako ng computer, late na ng gabi, nagbbrowse lang sa internet. Alam ko na dapat sinasara ko na ang aking computer para mag-quiet time.
“Sandali nalang Lord.”
Ilang minutes pa.
“Wait lang tignan ko nalang ito.”
Seconds, minutes, and then another hour passed.
I browsed, and browsed, read articles in the internet that grieved my heart. Alam ko hindi ko dapat binabasa yun, pero curious ako (learners dark side). I was slowly feeding my mind and my heart with trash. The Holy Spirit needed to intervene; I listened and turned off the computer.
I repented; I should’ve obeyed right away. And God forgave me of my disobedience.
After that He reminded of David’s sin in 2Samuel 11.
One late afternoon, David got up from taking his nap and was strolling on the roof of the palace. From his vantage point on the roof he saw a woman bathing. The woman was stunningly beautiful. David sent to ask about her, and was told, “Isn’t this Bathsheba, daughter of Eliam and wife of Uriah the Hittite?” David sent his agents to get her. After she arrived, he went to bed with her. (This occurred during the time of “purification” following her period.) Then she returned home. Before long she realized she was pregnant.
Later she sent word to David: “I’m pregnant.” (2 Samuel 11:2-5 The Message)
The chronology of how king David was lead to sin:
1) He was not supposed to be in Jerusalem.
In the spring, at the time when kings go off to war, David sent Joab out with the king’s men and the whole Israelite army. They destroyed the Ammonites and besieged Rabbah. But David remained in Jerusalem. (2 Samuel 11:1 NIV)
Mabigat na digmaan ang kinakaharap nila king David nung panahon na iyon laban sa mga Ammonites. Dapat andun si king David pero nagpaiwan siya sa Jerusalem. The Bible didn’t tell us he was sick, he just decided to stay.
2) He was supposed to be fighting and not resting.
One evening David got up from his bed and walked around on the roof of the palace. From the roof he saw a woman bathing. The woman was very beautiful . . . (2 Samuel 11:2 NIV)
Lumalaban dapat siya kasama nila Joab pero andun siya sa kanyang rooftop (probably sipping some wine) at pinanood niya si Bathsheba habang naliligo.
3) He was not supposed to touch Bathsheba.
. . . and David sent someone to find out about her. The man said, “She is Bathsheba, the daughter of Eliam and the wife of Uriah the Hittite.” Then David sent messengers to get her. She came to him, and he slept with her. (Now she was purifying herself from her monthly uncleanness.) Then she went back home.The woman conceived and sent word to David, saying, “I am pregnant.” (2 Samuel 11:3-5 NIV)
Nakipagtalik si David kay Bathsheba na alam niya na hindi dapat, dahil alam niyang kasal si Bathsheba kay Uriah AT fertile si Bathsheba nung mga panahon na yun. Alam niya yun.
Imagine his face after hearing the message from Bathsheba saying “I am pregnant.”
David had committed adultery and then commits murder just to cover his sin.
Here are some questions we need to ask ourselves:
a) Are we hearing from God?
b) Are we in the place where God wants us to be?
c) Are we doing what God wants us to do?
d) Are we obeying Him?
The little selfish acts that we do—cutting classes when we’re supposed to be at school; at home when we’re supposed to be working; browsing the internet when we are supposed to spending time with God—can eventually lead us to give birth to sin that will become our greatest downfall. Be very careful and check your heart.
Current mood: Need to focus.