From my sour bowl of cereals

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I am my husband’s official cupbearer. How I got that title was when we drank a bowl of stale milk while eating our cereals. I knew for sure there was something wrong with the milk; he, on the other hand, didn’t notice any difference at all. After being convinced that the milk was stale he dubbed me as his official cupbearer, making sure he won’t drink any stale food or milk for that matter.

I’ve noticed, in this new season of my life, I need to upgrade my time studying the word of God. Like training my tongue to know whether the food is good or not, I need to train my myself to hear the voice of God through the scriptures. We are living in a generation that shoots information faster than the speed of light; we consume thousands of these

every.

single.

day.

Whether these pieces of information are good or bad we absorb them like a sponge. Exposing myself to the Word of God I can easily glean out things that will not be beneficial for me. Like a good cupbearer, it is my duty to know what information will poison my system.

It’s time for an upgrade!

 

160  Current mood: UPGRADE!!!

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Ahhhh . . . new year and every time I write at the beginning of the year it is mostly a look back of what happened in the previous year and/or write something hopeful for the new year. Today it’ll be different, actually I never thought there would come a day that I would write this. For years since I started this blog I’ve written a lot of entries about being single (like this, this, and this. That made my blog slightly famous by the way), I bet now you’ve guessed what I am about to write. This, I believe, is the best time to announce that I’ve met him, the person I call in my blog “my future husband.”

Woohoo! *throws confetti*

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Actually, I said “of course”

I’ve met Fosty June of 2014 during our MPD training. I was seated right next to him, a quiet guy from Macau. I thought he was a local so I started asking him questions about Macau only to find out that he’s Filipino (lels~) who works there and decided to do ministry work and plant churches. A young guy in his twenties deciding to do what God has called him to do, interesting right? After that five days training we parted ways, he flew back to Macau and I stayed in the Philippines. We never saw each other for six months, never even communicated with him. And why would I? For me we were just seat mates. But I didn’t know that during that time he was already praying for me.

To those who know me personally you already know my love story. It’s beautiful how God orchestrated every detail of our lives to bring us closer together. I’d probably write portion of it here every now and then, but for now I just want everybody to know that I am so looking forward to tie the knot with him this 2017.

I’ve been praying for him, I’ve waited for him, and prepared for him. God molded my heart and disciplined me not to make my future husband my idol/god, I thought I would never meet him because of that season of pruning. I trusted God’s plan for me. Yielded to His love. So now I am engaged, and I am in love with my fiancé, but Jesus will always be the lover of my soul. In this process of trusting God I’ve really learned (and this lesson is continually being engraved in my heart) that being a wife or a mother in the future will not make me whole and complete as a person. Only in Jesus will I be truly complete.

I’m excited to write new adventures, new lessons in this new season in life with Fosty. 🙂

YES  current mood: Hopeful. This is it, pansit!

Pasasalamat

Paumanhin kung medyo huli na ito pero gusto ko lang magpasalamat sa lahat ng bumati sa akin nung aking kaarawan. Sa lahat ng . . .

• Bumati sa facebook
• Bumati sa private message
• Bumati sa text
• Bumati in person
• Nagbigay ng regalo
• Gumawa ng photo collage
• Gumawa ng video

Salamat sa effort ng pagbati, sa pagcompose ng message, nag-isip at gumastos sa regalo, nagbigay ng bonggang effort sa picture collage at video. Nakakabless kayo! Umaapaw sa kaligayahan ang aking puso. Maraming, maraming, maraming salamat!

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image  Current mood: Supah blessed.

May nagsabi na ba sayo na maganda ka?

Isang araw tinanong ko ito . . .

“Lord, ako lang ba at ikaw ang nakakaalam na maganda ako?”

Tinawanan ko nalang ang sarili ko, at sa totoo lang hindi ko kailangan ng sagot dun. Pero kayo ba, (lalo na ang mga babae) natanong ninyo rin ba yun? O kaya yung tanong na “maganda ba ako?”

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It's ok Natalie, you're still pretty, and hair grows. 😀

We humans celebrate beauty. Gusto natin magkaroon ng artistahing mukha, katawan na pwedeng ipagmalaki sa beach, magkaroon ng “perfect” hair (kung anuman yung elusive “perfect” hair na yun; straight ba o kulot? Hindi ko alam). We spend so much on clothes, shoes, hair, and make-up. We have fallen in love on the idea of beauty and, for some, would die for it. But what about inner beauty?

Physical beauty vs. Inner beauty

Q: Maganda ba siya?
A: Sobrang Mabait.
Q: Gwapo ba siya?
A: Masipag naman.

Physical beauty will always be the first thing that people will notice, but inner beauty will the the last thing that they will forget. Physical beauty will attract the eyes, but inner beauty enchants the soul. I don’t know if you’ve realized this–inner beauty does not seek the praises of men.

We, humans, are created to deteriorate; mapapanis tayo, mga kaibigan. It means that physical beauty will fade but inner beauty will not. Though it is important to take good care of our bodies but it is more important to cultivate our souls.

Dress to impress

And lastly, try to answer this question: Who am I trying to impress?

I hope this verse will help you narrow down your answer to just one:

Your beauty should not come from outward adornment, such as braided hair and the wearing of gold jewelry and fine clothes. Instead, it should be that of your inner self, the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit, which is of great worth in God’s sight. (1Peter 3:3, 4)

Check your motives. Yes, we dress to impress but who is your target audience? We can dress right and do the right things because we want to be noticed by people OR do these things because we know it is of great worth in God’s eyes. I hope our motives should always be directed to God.

Personally, I came in to a conclusion that it’s ok for me if no one notice that I am beautiful. As long as I know that I am made beautiful in Christ, and in God’s sight I am of great value.

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  Current mood: Pretty-ness!

Thirty Minutes Late

4:00 AM. Tumunog na alarm ko.

“10 more minutes . . .”

Pero alam ko na hindi ko dapat pinag-aantay si God.

“Please.” I insisted. I gave my flesh a few more minutes to satisfy its desire to sleep.

30 minutes passed. Gumising na ako.

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Photo source: Pinterest.com

Binuksan ko Bible ko, nagbasa pero wala akong nakuha; I missed His presence. I was suppose to dine with God and feed my soul with His word, but now I find myself scrambling for a few crumbs only because I wanted to snooze some more.

Naramdaman ko yung naramdaman ni Esau nung wala na siyang blessing na nakuha galing kay Isaac.

. . . he burst out with a loud and bitter cry and said to his father, “Bless me—me too, my father!” (Genesis 27:34)

He didn’t get his blessing because He despised his birthright.

Then Jacob gave Esau some bread and some lentil stew. He ate and drank, and then got up and left. So Esau despised his birthright. (Genesis 25:34)

It was valid, Esau was hungry, but Jacob was even more hungry. Hungry for what? Hungry for the birthright.

Kung iisipin, ginawa ko naman ang dapat kong gawin–mag-quiet time. Buksan ang bible sa umaga, magpray, worship, etc. Don’t be too hard on yourself, Ana. OK na, nagawa mo na “duties” mo. But quiet time is not quiet time without His presence. And spending time with God is not just my duty–it’s my devotion.

I realized how much I demand God to give His promises NOW, His blessings NOW, His healing NOW. But when He asks for our time, our resources (actually, not ours but His), and our talents, what do we say? “Lord, 10 more minutes.” or “Lord, next year nalang.”

It’s stupid to think that God is all grace and mercy and devoid of wrath. Don’t ever forget that God is holy. He is the King and He can, and will, demand for attention.

Before I left my house I prayed–repented of my laziness. And then He said, “Sige, anak, bukas uli.”

Indeed, His mercies are new every morning.

the-block  Current mood: Basag.

Status: Engaged

Wala akong plano na magsulat ng sequel sa aking blog na “Status: In a relationship” pero sadyang kakaiba lang talaga itong araw na ito. At kahit galing akong overtime pinilit kong isulat ang blog na ito bago siya lumipad sa aking isipan.

Nagsimula ang lahat nung napansin ko sa facebook na madaming nagpopost tungkol sa mga wedding proposals. Hindi ko alam kung anung meron, at anung nakain nila, na parang ginanahan ata sila magbasa at manood ng mga wedding proposal sa internet (at ishare sa facebook). Baka dahil malamig ang panahon? Ewan.

Greatest wedding proposal

Paano mo nga bang masasabi na ang isang wedding proposal ay “the best?” Dahil ba ito sa gimik? Sa background music? Sa venue? Sa presyo ng singsing? O sa script ng lalaki bago siya lumuhod at tanungin ang mga katagang “will you marry me?”

Hindi ko alam.

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Meron akong alam na wedding proposal na, hindi lang ako pinakilig, pinaiyak pa ako. Walang singsing, walang musika, walang magarang venue pero dahil sa ginawa niya nasabi ko ang matamis kong “Oo.”

Ano ang binigay niya? Ang kanyang buhay.

“This is how we know what love is: Jesus Christ laid down his life for us.” (1 John 3:16)

Jesus referred to the Church (the people not the building) as His bride and He Himself the Bridegroom. Jesus didn’t just kneel down in front of His bride-to-be, instead He offered up His life to be crucified on the cross. As sad as it may seem, this, I believe, is the most beautiful wedding proposal in history. You see, we are not a beautiful bride; we are ugly sinners and we do not deserve the love of the King. But He loves us–oh so crazy in love with us.

“For God so loved the world that He gave His only Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life.” (John 3:16)

But of course, this is a wedding proposal. Jesus, the Bridegroom, is inviting us to be with Him; to experience His love; to honor Him, and of course, to love Him. Now the question is, are you going to say yes?

Now if you do, I just want you to pray this short prayer. Nothing fancy, just you and God. You don’t need to say it out loud, just say it in your heart and talk to Him.

Heavenly Father, Thank you for sending your Son, Jesus to die on the cross to pay the penalty for my sin. Jesus, I thank you that you have laid down your life for me—a sinner. I’m sorry for all my sins. I ask that you cleanse me. Today, I receive you as my bridegroom, my Lord, and my Saviour for the rest of my life. Amen.

By the way, don’t worry the Bridegroom is not dead. He is alive and reigning. And we will all see Him in His glory. 🙂

160  Current mood: Blessed