More Coffee Cup Adventures

Ahhhh . . . new year and every time I write at the beginning of the year it is mostly a look back of what happened in the previous year and/or write something hopeful for the new year. Today it’ll be different, actually I never thought there would come a day that I would write this. For years since I started this blog I’ve written a lot of entries about being single (like this, this, and this. That made my blog slightly famous by the way), I bet now you’ve guessed what I am about to write. This, I believe, is the best time to announce that I’ve met him, the person I call in my blog “my future husband.”

Woohoo! *throws confetti*

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Actually, I said “of course”

I’ve met Fosty June of 2014 during our MPD training. I was seated right next to him, a quiet guy from Macau. I thought he was a local so I started asking him questions about Macau only to find out that he’s Filipino (lels~) who works there and decided to do ministry work and plant churches. A young guy in his twenties deciding to do what God has called him to do, interesting right? After that five days training we parted ways, he flew back to Macau and I stayed in the Philippines. We never saw each other for six months, never even communicated with him. And why would I? For me we were just seat mates. But I didn’t know that during that time he was already praying for me.

To those who know me personally you already know my love story. It’s beautiful how God orchestrated every detail of our lives to bring us closer together. I’d probably write portion of it here every now and then, but for now I just want everybody to know that I am so looking forward to tie the knot with him this 2017.

I’ve been praying for him, I’ve waited for him, and prepared for him. God molded my heart and disciplined me not to make my future husband my idol/god, I thought I would never meet him because of that season of pruning. I trusted God’s plan for me. Yielded to His love. So now I am engaged, and I am in love with my fiancé, but Jesus will always be the lover of my soul. In this process of trusting God I’ve really learned (and this lesson is continually being engraved in my heart) that being a wife or a mother in the future will not make me whole and complete as a person. Only in Jesus will I be truly complete.

I’m excited to write new adventures, new lessons in this new season in life with Fosty. 🙂

YES  current mood: Hopeful. This is it, pansit!

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Outrageous Love: Part 2

Over the past centuries lot of individuals, movement, religion, and whatnot have misrepresented Jesus. They do their plans “in the name of Jesus” hurting and killing so many lives. Sad thing about it is that Jesus’ name is still being used for their own personal gain.

I’m not writing this to defend His divinity, I am writing this to somehow tell you, my beloved readers, why Jesus came and did what He did when He was here on earth, and the WHY behind WHAT He did is far more important to me. But before anything else, I do not claim to be a theologian, I am though, a Christian who’s been smitten by this outrageous love that only He (Jesus) can give.

One day when I went home to visit my mom, one of our cute dogs, Coleen, approached me with her tail wagging like crazy, then she dropped something on my foot like a gift from her to me. To my surprise horror it’s not a toy but a cockroach, barely alive twitching and turning trying to escape his uh . . . death. So I shook my leg horrendously wanting to get that thing off my foot. But my dog was just so happy, she offered her gift of love and who am I to complai? But I don’t need her gift, I don’t need her pet cockroach, I just want to play with her.

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We humans are somehow like Coleen, we come to God and we offer our gifts of love, our sacrifices, our good works trying to please Him — our Master. But God doesn’t need our gifts for He owns everything, He doesn’t need our talents nor our good works, He just wants you and me. All this sacrifices and good deeds are like filthy rags to Him (or like that cockroach). God is not an insecure God that if you don’t do certain religious stuff He’ll be sad or mad at us. In reality, He was the One who gave the ultimate sacrifice so that we can enjoy Him forever. I’m not talking about hyper grace here, but I am presenting this outrageous, lavish love He wants to give us.

Now about good works and obedience to His word and commands, we still have to obey that. Not to show how much you love Him but for us to know how much He loves us, so that we may understand His will and know, by obeying, His will is good, pleasing and perfect for us.

How then do we receive this “outrageous love”? By simply admitting that, by your own good works, you cannot merit His love. We can only get it if we receive it by faith. Acknowledge that it is only through Jesus that we can go to God — nothing more, nothing less. Some may be offended by its simplicity, some may not even accept Jesus. But Jesus is not moved to love you more if you love him back or not, because even before He went to that cross He had already decided to love you and me extravagantly. And now the question remains, will you accept that love? If you do then I want you to pray and tell God that you want to receive that love and acknowledge that it is only through Jesus you can receive that eternal love from the Him, our Father.

46  Current mood: loved.

Outrageous Love

It has been 3 months since I last wrote something for my blog. As some of you may have noticed (or maybe not) I’ve shifted my writing from Taglish to English, mainly because I am widening my audience not just for Tagalog readers but also to people from all over the globe.

Why? I’m glad you asked.

It’s because of this reason: I want to share how amazing God is. Yeah, yeah, sure it sounds cheesy. But that’s really it.

You see, God loves you. He doesn’t just love you; He is madly, deeply in love with you that everything around you is manifesting His love towards you.

Some may not believe me. You may post a question like “How can this ‘loving’ God allow so much evil in this world? If you say that God loves me, why am I stuck in this stupid job, working for 9 to 10 hours and I don’t even get to enjoy my salary? If God loves me, then why am I suffering?”

I wish I can answer all your questions, I wish I can go to every city, every house, and every corner of this planet to tell you personally how much He loves you. But I can’t. As sad as it is, I really can’t, even if I want to. I can only go to one place at a time and only do things with these God-given abilities. I am not omnipotent and I am not omnipresent, but God is. And God Himself can show you how much He loves you.

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And as you are reading this and maybe saying to yourself that this is crap and full of nonsense and that her grammar and sentence construction is awful, let me tell you this, God is God even if you don’t believe Him. But if you ask Him, and tell Him you want to give it a shot, and allow Him to love you, He will. There is so much in store for you than what this world can offer and this is not an empty promise; this promise is real.

But now you have a choice, whether to receive that promise and the love that you so much wanted, OR you can just watch from afar and say maybe it’s not for me. But I tell you, you have a choice.

Watch and be amazed when God pours out His love upon you.

But how? How can you receive this awesome love that I am bragging about? Again, I’m glad you asked.

Let me continue to answer that on my next blog post.

160  current mood: loved beyond measure

The Pain of Jealousy

Have you accidentally stepped on a piece of lego barefoot? Do you remember the pain? Well, as much as that hurts, that is nothing compared to the pain of jealousy. Stepping on a piece of lego will last for minutes but the pain of jealousy can last for days, months, or even years.

Think about the last time you felt jealous for someone. Do you remember the piercing pain inside your heart? Remember the feeling that you can’t almost breathe knowing that the person you love lost interest in you and have run after someone else? You ask yourself, what have I done wrong? But no good answer satisfied the hurt that you’re feeling.

Remember the anger you feel for that person or that object that stole the love that was rightly yours. Anger that you want to destroy his/her object of affection. Please bear with me and for this moment remember all that pain.

That pain, my friend, multiplied 100 times, is exactly what God feels for you. We have all deserted Him and ran after our gods. We have prostituted ourselves to someone or something that never truly loved us the way He does.

Who has has your heart?

Is it your boyfriend? Your girlfriend? Your crush?

Is it your work? Your ministry?

Is it you plans? Your dreams? Your ambition?

If you know what jealousy feels then you know exactly the pain that God feels.

“Do not worship any other God, for the LORD, whose name is Jealous, is a jealous God.” (Exodus 34:14)

 

 

really tired  Current mood: Unexplained.

When you Experience Injustice

After hearing a preaching from pastor Steve Murrell about being grateful I didn’t expect that I will practice what I have learned immediately.

When a person experience injustice the question he/she should ask is this, “What kind of person do I want to be?”

“Do I want to be bitter?” Or “Do I want to be better?”

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EVERYTHING I TELL YAH!

All of us experience injustice, but how we respond and what we choose to become is really up to us. I’ll leave these questions for you to answer but as for me, learning from Jesus’ teachings and how He lived, I choose to be better––I choose to love.

 

YES  current mood: WIN!

A Broken Alabaster Jar

I cannot look people straight into their eyes because I know they’re disgusted when they see me.

“She’s a harlot!” That’s what they say. Scorned by the public, despised by my family.

Unloved.
Unworthy.

I cannot look at myself in the mirror, because what I see is an ugly woman hiding underneath the layers of her make-up.

Braided hair, beautiful clothes, fragrant smell; if only I can be like this alabaster jar—beautiful and precious. People will pay huge amount for this.

But not me.

For I am not worth your year’s wage. Scorned by the public, despised by my family.

Unloved.
Unworthy.

But You looked at me. You looked at me with compassion in Your eyes. What do You see that people can’t see? What do You see that I can’t see?

I know some men look at me with lust. I know some men look at me with disgust. But You see me differently. You don’t see me as a harlot; You saw what’s inside of me; You saw something so precious.

Now I understand, it’s not the beautiful alabaster jar that’s precious, it’s what it holds that has more value. But who am I? I am scorned by the public, despised by my family.

Unloved.
Unworthy.

I rushed to see this man. They say His name is Jesus. I grabbed my alabaster jar filled with pure nard.

Bowed down at His feet, I wept like child. For the first time I felt love, real love. My Lord, what can I offer except this jar of perfume? I am broken—a broken vessel like this jar of alabaster. My contents are all spilled out but I don’t care. I am loved. I will pour out my all, my everything at your feet. You are more precious to me.

Then He said these loving words to me, “your sins are forgiven. Go in peace.” I anointed Him but He also anointed me. Though scorned by the public and despised by my family, but in Him . . .

I am loved.
I am worthy.

A narrative inspired by a character in the bible in Luke 7:36-50.

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  Current mood: So many things to do, so little time.

For the Love of (Part 3): The nations

Ask.

Seek. Knock. That’s what the Bible says in Matthew 7. We can ask for cars, houses, babies, relationships, success for your business, jobs, etc. Nothing wrong with that, I’m also praying for those things. Interesting about God is that He also wants us to ask for this one thing He loves–the nations.

“Ask me, and I will make the nations your inheritance, the ends of the earth your possession.” (Psalms 2:8 NIV)

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But we have to remember that when we ask for certain things there are prerequisites. Like, when we ask for a car–we need to have a driver’s license; when we we want to travel outside the country–we need to have a passport. And when we ask for the nations–we need to have a big heart to love the people–

broken people

selfish people

lost people.

We can’t love the nations if we’re too busy loving ourselves. Are you ready to die to yourself in order to serve others? Are we ready to ask God to have a big heart and a strong faith to love His people? If yes, then what are you waiting for? He’ll give it to you. Go and

Ask.

tuzki-bunny-emoticon-036  Current mood: Good job!