About yanangski

I'm Yanangski! Married to a wonderful man who likes to drink tea more than coffee. I am 1/2 Tagalog, 1/2 Ilokano, 1/4 Spanish, 1/2 not good in fractions

From my sour bowl of cereals

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I am my husband’s official cupbearer. How I got that title was when we drank a bowl of stale milk while eating our cereals. I knew for sure there was something wrong with the milk; he, on the other hand, didn’t notice any difference at all. After being convinced that the milk was stale he dubbed me as his official cupbearer, making sure he won’t drink any stale food or milk for that matter.

I’ve noticed, in this new season of my life, I need to upgrade my time studying the word of God. Like training my tongue to know whether the food is good or not, I need to train my myself to hear the voice of God through the scriptures. We are living in a generation that shoots information faster than the speed of light; we consume thousands of these

every.

single.

day.

Whether these pieces of information are good or bad we absorb them like a sponge. Exposing myself to the Word of God I can easily glean out things that will not be beneficial for me. Like a good cupbearer, it is my duty to know what information will poison my system.

It’s time for an upgrade!

 

160  Current mood: UPGRADE!!!

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More Coffee Cup Adventures

Ahhhh . . . new year and every time I write at the beginning of the year it is mostly a look back of what happened in the previous year and/or write something hopeful for the new year. Today it’ll be different, actually I never thought there would come a day that I would write this. For years since I started this blog I’ve written a lot of entries about being single (like this, this, and this. That made my blog slightly famous by the way), I bet now you’ve guessed what I am about to write. This, I believe, is the best time to announce that I’ve met him, the person I call in my blog “my future husband.”

Woohoo! *throws confetti*

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Actually, I said “of course”

I’ve met Fosty June of 2014 during our MPD training. I was seated right next to him, a quiet guy from Macau. I thought he was a local so I started asking him questions about Macau only to find out that he’s Filipino (lels~) who works there and decided to do ministry work and plant churches. A young guy in his twenties deciding to do what God has called him to do, interesting right? After that five days training we parted ways, he flew back to Macau and I stayed in the Philippines. We never saw each other for six months, never even communicated with him. And why would I? For me we were just seat mates. But I didn’t know that during that time he was already praying for me.

To those who know me personally you already know my love story. It’s beautiful how God orchestrated every detail of our lives to bring us closer together. I’d probably write portion of it here every now and then, but for now I just want everybody to know that I am so looking forward to tie the knot with him this 2017.

I’ve been praying for him, I’ve waited for him, and prepared for him. God molded my heart and disciplined me not to make my future husband my idol/god, I thought I would never meet him because of that season of pruning. I trusted God’s plan for me. Yielded to His love. So now I am engaged, and I am in love with my fiancé, but Jesus will always be the lover of my soul. In this process of trusting God I’ve really learned (and this lesson is continually being engraved in my heart) that being a wife or a mother in the future will not make me whole and complete as a person. Only in Jesus will I be truly complete.

I’m excited to write new adventures, new lessons in this new season in life with Fosty. 🙂

YES  current mood: Hopeful. This is it, pansit!

The Hero Story

What’s happening, Lord?

A prayer I uttered as I watch another news about terrorism. I squeezed my hands together placed it gently on my lips as I uttered another prayer. My words were so simple mostly crying out for peace.

What’s happening? What can I do?

I know after this prayer one day I will hear another news about terrorism, and another, and another. More lives will be killed maybe someone I love dearly or maybe my very own life. I felt very helpless about the situation, but am I really helpless? Is there really nothing I can do?

I went home bearing the heaviness of the situation. Sure I’ve heard news about terrorism before but that day was different. That day I needed to cry. So I did, I went inside my room closed the door and sat on my bed, I faced the world map I placed on my wall and cried again. Asked the same question,

What’s happening? What can I do?

Then I noticed something. Two verses I placed on my world map to remind me of what I should be doing.

“. . . my house shall be called a house of prayer for all peoples.” – Isaiah 56:7

“Perhaps this is the moment for which you were created.” -Esther 4:14

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I am called to pray at this very moment. Yes, just pray. I know about this already, so why am I still asking God? The method is not the problem, and the Holy Spirit revealed something in my heart that I did not expect. I wanted to be the hero.

He placed my focus back to Jesus and the Holy Spirit said, “He is the real Hero in this story.” I stepped back and acknowledged His presence.

Jesus, at that moment, lifted the burden off my shoulders placed it on His and said, “it is finished.” God has already given the solution to this problem, and His name is Jesus.

Some people may say I am too naive and too simplistic. Granted. But one thing I know and I will hold on to this—we do not need another political leader to change the world, we need a Saviour and a King who loved us and forgave us of our sins and who will teach us to do the same to the people we both love and hate. And until the whole world knows Him, my job is not yet done.

tuzki-bunny-emoticon-021  Current mood: Meditating

Game of throne

Before anything else I would like everybody to know that I haven’t seen a single episode of “Game of Thrones.” And I don’t think I’ll watch a single episode. Please don’t judge me, I still love you. Anyway, this blog post is not about the series, it’s about your heart and who rules, dictates, and calls the shot.

Who sits on the throne of your heart?

There are a lot of gods who wants to sit on that throne. Some of you may not be aware of it, but some you already know who sits on that throne. In fact, you already have decided.

So, who sits on the throne of your heart?

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I hope your heart is not as . . . uhh . . . murderous as this one. (photo reference: Game of Thrones)

Idolatry is a serious offense against God. Idolatry is anything you put before God; it is the first thing  you think of the moment you wake up and the last before resigning to bed; it consumes your emotion and takes up your time. Bad news is that we create our own idols everyday.

we create idols of relationship

idols of career

idols of academics

idols of ministry

for some it is this awesome person you admire. *hint, hint, nudge, nudge*

Your idols will demand a sacrifice. As long as you worship your idols it will demand more than what you can give it will demand your life. The difference between God and your counterfeit gods is this, the one true living God will give you life and life to the full; the counterfeit gods will suck the life out of you and eventually destroy you.

We all have a choice; we can decide who sits on the throne – the God who gives life or the god who destroys life.

Your choice.

139  current mood: Relaxed busy (whatever that means)

On Cancer and Sin

I have friends who, just this past 2 months, have family members who died of cancer. I hate cancer! My grandmother died from one, and it is not something you would wish even to your enemies. Hearing stories how the medical field have created, and still creating, treatments and medicines against cancer is amazing. Also, many organizations are formed to support cancer patients and their families, giving donations and other support is awesome beyond words. So, this is how it goes, we kill the cancer and we save the patient. Not only save them from the imminent death but also to give that person the love and support he/she needs. Right?

How I wish it goes the same on how we treat sin and sinners. We kill the sin and we save the sinners. Not only that, but we also give them the love and support they need. Instead, we judge them, ridicule them, and we drive them out of the church. We became too religious and we forgot why we are in the church in the first place. Jesus, puts it this way . . .

And the Pharisees and their scribes grumbled at his disciples, saying, “Why do you eat and drink with tax collectors and sinners?” And Jesus answered them, “Those who are well have no need of a physician, but those who are sick. I have not come to call the righteous but sinners to repentance.” – Luke 5:30-32

 

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The hospital is a place for sick people who wants to be well, as well as a church a place for sinners who wants to be forgiven. Jesus came not to call the righteous but the sinners to repent. If we, the church, treat the sin and the sinner the way the hospital treat the disease and the patient, then more and more people will come to the church to receive forgiveness and spiritual healing. We do not justify sin; we kill sin; we welcome sinners because they need help. We all need help because we are all sinners in need of a Savior. We are not holy because we are in the church; we are holy because Jesus forgave us and made us holy. Who are we, then, to deny people of that benefit?

160  Current mood: I’m alive!

Outrageous Love: Part 2

Over the past centuries lot of individuals, movement, religion, and whatnot have misrepresented Jesus. They do their plans “in the name of Jesus” hurting and killing so many lives. Sad thing about it is that Jesus’ name is still being used for their own personal gain.

I’m not writing this to defend His divinity, I am writing this to somehow tell you, my beloved readers, why Jesus came and did what He did when He was here on earth, and the WHY behind WHAT He did is far more important to me. But before anything else, I do not claim to be a theologian, I am though, a Christian who’s been smitten by this outrageous love that only He (Jesus) can give.

One day when I went home to visit my mom, one of our cute dogs, Coleen, approached me with her tail wagging like crazy, then she dropped something on my foot like a gift from her to me. To my surprise horror it’s not a toy but a cockroach, barely alive twitching and turning trying to escape his uh . . . death. So I shook my leg horrendously wanting to get that thing off my foot. But my dog was just so happy, she offered her gift of love and who am I to complai? But I don’t need her gift, I don’t need her pet cockroach, I just want to play with her.

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We humans are somehow like Coleen, we come to God and we offer our gifts of love, our sacrifices, our good works trying to please Him — our Master. But God doesn’t need our gifts for He owns everything, He doesn’t need our talents nor our good works, He just wants you and me. All this sacrifices and good deeds are like filthy rags to Him (or like that cockroach). God is not an insecure God that if you don’t do certain religious stuff He’ll be sad or mad at us. In reality, He was the One who gave the ultimate sacrifice so that we can enjoy Him forever. I’m not talking about hyper grace here, but I am presenting this outrageous, lavish love He wants to give us.

Now about good works and obedience to His word and commands, we still have to obey that. Not to show how much you love Him but for us to know how much He loves us, so that we may understand His will and know, by obeying, His will is good, pleasing and perfect for us.

How then do we receive this “outrageous love”? By simply admitting that, by your own good works, you cannot merit His love. We can only get it if we receive it by faith. Acknowledge that it is only through Jesus that we can go to God — nothing more, nothing less. Some may be offended by its simplicity, some may not even accept Jesus. But Jesus is not moved to love you more if you love him back or not, because even before He went to that cross He had already decided to love you and me extravagantly. And now the question remains, will you accept that love? If you do then I want you to pray and tell God that you want to receive that love and acknowledge that it is only through Jesus you can receive that eternal love from the Him, our Father.

46  Current mood: loved.